L o n e l y I n T h e D a r k

Saturday, December 10, 2005

Just came back from ma uncle's house. Went there to visit ma granny. I dunno why today i feel like im so damn blur. Im very frustrated with maself.

Just hate maself a few seconds ago. The thing that im frustrated with maself is bout ma driving. Just now, after reaching ma place, thought of sending ma parents at ma blk first. While i was about to enter ma blk, i was quite shocked that at d round about, lotsa cars park as they like at d double yellow line. Then, as i was bout to stop ma car, i didn't realise that ma left side mirror is veri near to d wall. Ma bro was half shouting asking me to stop. I just dunno what am i thinking. Maybe its just because im worried bout d car that just behind me. I dunno what am i thinking bout d car behind me. Thats when suddenly ma bro said that there is this one "Pak Aji" in front doing his work. I think maybe i was kinda nervous, thats when i didn't realise that ma left side mirror almost hit d wall.

Then another stupid thing happen. After ma parents went out of d car, me exchange driver with ma bro. While exchanging, i was looking at d "Pak Aji" and suddenly i bumped with ma bro. It was veri great impact till ma bro scolded me there. Straight jack i get!.. Feeling much more frustrated, i just went inside d car, sitting beside ma bro, and just shut ma mouth. All d while i was cursing maself because of ma stupid mistake. Just can't stop blaming maself for ma dumbest mistake!!.. ERGHH!!!!...

After ma bro parked d car, he chat with me as usual. Im not mad at him at all. While on the way back home, he went back to d place where i dropped ma parents, he pointed out ma mistake and explains to me what i should do. Then inside ma heart i was so disspointed with maself bcoz i felt like as though with ma stupidest mistake that i just did, it makes ma parents not to have the confidence to b ma passenger. Just cursing maself since just now. Feeling so down right now. Worrying bout tomorrow, i'll b driving again. Haiz~~...

Aniwez, today, ma day was quite tiring. I woke up at bout 8.30. I was late to mit ma friend for ma revision. Luckily, she understands me well. We mit up at Woodlands Civic Center. We study not that long. About 11.45, we went out of d library, and take our lunch. Then bout 12.45, me and ma friend went our different ways. She went home and me, waited for ma bro to fetch me.

Me and ma bro reached home bout 1.10pm. While waiting for ma parents to get ready, i downloaded a song, Etre Une Femme by Anggun. Heard it inside d car while was on d way home. Finds it quite a nice song. Then, while downloading, i tooka short nap. Bout 2pm, all of us are ready, and we went out.

Our first destination is Jamiyah at Geylang Lorong 12. On the way there, went inside to all these Lorongs', seen lotsa these women standing around. I dunno actually what d heck they were doing. But i suspected it something fishy is going on. Then ma bro explained to me. Then, ma conclusion was right. Just feels irritated with them. By d way how they dressed up, standing around, chatting with d guys, and what ever that they are doing. But, at d same time, feels so sorry for them bcoz they have to do this type of job. Pity them. But, maybe thats what their life has been fated for them.

Went to Jamiyah bcoz of ma dad's case. Ma dad wanna seek a lawyer's point of view on his prob and asking for his suggestions bout what is d action that he should take next. We choose to went there is bcoz he knows lotsa bout these laws thingy that is going on in Singapore. For one long hour, at last, we had our first step. He advice us to find a lawyer to fight for our case. Which then we will go to MOM with our lawyer to at least give ma dad d compensation money. After having all the suggestions, we went straight for our dinner.

We went to Bedok Corner. Ma parents order ikan pari bakar with another ikan bakar[dunno what ikan] with sayur kangkong. Ma drink was Milo Dinosaur while d rest just drink teh tarik. Ermmnn.. all was nice. But, i wasn't eating that much bcoz im quite full when reaching there. Ma Mc Wings that i had for ma lunch haven't digested yet. Hehehe...

After had our lunch, went straight to ma uncle's house. Thats when ma granny talks lotsa stuff. But, out of all topic, ma granny talks bout marriage. She ask me when i'll b finishing ma school. Then she ask me whether i wanna get married after that. Kinda shocked. But, i just replied to ma granny that im not ready yet for all those stuff. I share with her what are ma plans after i graduated from ma poly. She just agree what i said. Wondering whether she understands what am i talking bout. Hahahaha... Then she asked bout ma friend whether they are married already onot. Yeah. I just share with her bout ma friends story. Most of ma friends are not married yet, but, they are getting engaged soon. I just listen to her comments. Maklom laa... Orang tua. Iyerr kan jelaa.. Hehehe...

Yeah. Thats what ive been doing d whole day. Now, very tired. Feeling restless. However, worried bout ma lab test for next week. Not yet finished doing ma revision. Haiz~~... But, what im worried more right now, is about tomorrow. I'll b driving tomorrow to lotsa places. Have lotsa wedding invitations. There will b 3 places. One at Tamp, Bukit Panjang and last is ma cousin at Woodlands Circle. Haizz... Gez i stop here for now.

Oh yaa!!.. To ma friends who has approached me at msn this afternoon, would want to ask for forgiveness bcoz at that moment, i forget to switched off ma computer. Hmmnn.. Ma com has been running for d whole day. Ma bill will b BOOMED!!!.. Hahaha.. Aniwe, feels kinda relief at least ma dad's case, we'll fight for it. Hopefully, we'll win this case. To ma dad, tanx alot for the treat just now. Although we has financial difficulties right now, he still knows how to treat us. Haiz~~.. All of us prayed for you that rezekimu murah. (",) Ok den.

Im outa here!!ZZzzZzzZzz |-)

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