L o n e l y I n T h e D a r k

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Right now, im waiting for khai's call. She'll b calling me to inform me that shez at Far East. Then from there, i'll estimate bout what time i'll go out from ma house.

While waiting, im actually in dilemma. Just now, while i was getting maself ready, he enters ma room and he asked me to wait till 11.30, then go out. He ask me to wait for d outcome after he makes d call to d counsellor, Mr. Rajan, that he met yesterday. Then i was wondering, im going to ECP. And khai was on her way to Toa Payoh's interchange. She'll b reaching by 10.30. I can't possibly last minute ask her to walk around Toa Payoh Central right. Furthermore, ma dad ask me if Mr. Rajan ask ma dad to come down to his office, then how?.. I was like in confusion state. Why ma dad tells me this in last minute. Again, i can't possibly call up khai, who is on her way, tell her that im not going to ECP. If i put maself in her shoes, how will i feel?!

But, on d other hand, seeing ma dad in that situation, alone, lonely, half begging; just makes me feels so guilty. Im totally in dilemma. I dunno what should i do. When i told him that i've already make plans with khai, he said that i put ma friends as d first priority. I dun care bout him, yada2.. Errgghhh!!!!!... Why this had always happen to me. Why must this always happen in d veri last minute?!!! I just HATE MASELF!!!!

Btw, to him. Im sorry that im keeping quiet. Sorry that i dun reply to his message. Actually, im stressed up with this issue. Kinda small matter though. But, to take care of ma dad's and friends' hearts are not easy. Just trying to find d best solution outta this. Aniwez, to him, take care in what ever his doing and where ever he is....

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NurulAin Musa | In The Darkness | 10:07 AM |