L o n e l y I n T h e D a r k

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Just returned from ma uncle's house. Been staying there for about a week plus. Me, mom and dad has been there to help ma aunt, uncle and granny out. Ma aunt just undergo a minor operation. Although its minor, its still an operation. Hence, shez still weak. She can't carry any heavy stuff. She needs lotsa rest. So, ma fam were there to help her out with all d house work. Ma uncle also take a week off so as to accompany aunt.

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For this end of d year, ive been slacking at ma uncle's house. Besides than that, ive been going out with ma old sec best friends. During ma sec school years, d 3 of us are d best friends. Always together. However, im d one who take a step behind and walk away from them. Both of ma other 2 friends, Jun and Salihah, have chosen to enter NYP. But, as for me, I choose SP. Although we're no longer in d same school, we still keep in contact with each other. D differences is that we're no longer that close as how we used to b. Aniwe, there is some pictures i've taken during our reunion. Hehee.. Just click on d pix below and follow d link:

But before going out with ma old friends, ive went out to study with khai at BK of Changi Airport. Hmmnn.. d place there was quite a good place to study. We sat at d sofa area. I sat there as if i was at ma home. Hahahaa.. So, as usual, here's some pix that we took.
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Next, me and ma fam, together with uncle, went for fishing. Together along with all ma aunts' on ma Dad's side with fam, joined us for d fishing activity. First we went to Seletar. Then, in d afternoon, we went to Punggol. Hmmnn.. Me, bro and mom manage to caught 1 fish. But, as for Dad, he manage to caught bout 4 fishes. I know its too little. But, its our first attempt. As for ma Mak Tam, she manage to caught 20 fishes together with Pak Tam. Ma makcik and pak cik, together with their son, manage to caught quite alot of fish too. Can't deny that we can't beat them. They know better than us. But, Dad and Dad's siblings used to b a fisherman during their younger days. So, here are some pictures that are taken during d outing. Click on d pix below:

Hmmnn.. Other than that, at last, ma prayers comes true. Yesterday ive met with Him. First and foremost, i would like to thank Him for making ma prayers' comes true. Tanx alot for mitting me. And im sorry that our mitting was just a short one. It was at night and i can't go out at night. I have curfew. I hope He understand. And, sorry again that if i look awful. Because, at that time i just finish bathing. He told me last minute that he wanna mit me at ma uncle's place. I just agree to it. Bcoz, as what I believe, when ever i there is d chance, i'll grab it. I dun wanna end up losing again and continuing regreting. As for sure, im not prepared.

So, He was d same as what i see in d pix. Can see His awkwardness. I know He is abit of shy. But, tried ma best to b normal. Oni HE knows how do i feel at that moment. Actually, till today, i still feel that what ever happens yesterday, i mean d one that ive met him, was all a dream. I just can't believe that it comes true. Ive been asking maself, have i fallen asleep and dreaming of what has happened. But, what ever happens was true. Once again, i wanna thank to Him for making ma dream comes true.

Now, i'll leave everything to fate. Dunno whether He can accept d true me. Everything its all up to Him. Sometimes, we wouldn't know what's d requirements to b some people's friends. For as long as i know, i can accept Him as ma friend after mitting Him.

Oh ya! Before i forgot, while i was all along at ma uncle's house, get to know this one guy. Fadzli was Yazid's friend. Fadz just wanna b a friend to me. Yeah. And i accepted that friendship. To Fadz, tanx for being ma friend.

Aniwe, lotsa stuff needs to b clean up. Bring back home lotsa stuff. D car was like fully-loaded. There is like no more space to put some other stuff. Hence, we have to left it behind at uncle's place. Before we went back home, i shake hand with ma granny. Even before that, while i was packing up ma stuff, ma tears suddenly roll down ma cheeks. Hearing ma granny calling ma name, asking me am i going back home with ma parents too, asking am i gonna come again, put me in a guilty position. I feel like as if im leaving granny alone. Granny keeps on asking me, bro, mom and dad to come and visit her again. If possible to stay over like we did. Granny cried when Dad shake granny's hand. We all know that, that's d only way granny wanna expressed granny's thankfullness to us. When d part granny ask for forgiveness from me, i just can't control ma tears. To avoid granny seing ma tears, i quickly shake granny's hand, and get out from granny's room.

Till on d way back home, inside d car, just keeping maself quiet. Controlling ma tears. I dunno why am i so emotional these few days. Just dunno why ma tears are so cheap. Mayb its due to d strez that im going thru. Or izzit, that's ma nature. What i know, i just can't bear seeing someone that i truly love alone, on their own. If possible, i would offer maself to replace their place and leave me left alone.

I guess im stopping here for now. I need to continue with ma revision. Need to cool mself down. Later have 2 papers. And nothing has enter ma mind. Been stressfull and tired. Sometimes feels like giving up. Haiz~~... Nytez to everyone reading this.

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